Wednesday, December 9, 2009'♥
♥STORY OF MY LIFE♥
????
I have no comment on what is going on right now.
There's the good and bad part of it.
Everything is like normal. There's nothing special.
Having a boring holiday.
Im like still having alot of things to do.
Band stuff?
And i still havent practice the dance step and my instrument.
i have to man. If not i cant blow and right now Im having my tuning problem.
I have to solve all my tuning problem before going for band on this 22 dec.
And yeah. have to meet up with the low winds to practice the dance step.
haiis. There's like a lot of things going on.
One more thing, homework! OMG! I havent even start any topic man.
We're supposed to choose 10 topics among the 20 topics, search for 3 articles each and summarise all the 3 articles. So thats mean all together there's 30 articles and 3000 words?
I have to start doing my hmwk soon man. School reopens in 3 weeks time. SO i have to work fast.
yeah, and I still have to revise my studies cz there will be xams coming up. haiis.
Aniiway, thanks to maggie, hui hui and my cmc for helping me out to the band blog.
You all did alot of things. Im grateful. Thanks once again.
And lastly.
theres this person. I dunnoe who she/he is. But that person put his name as tjr.
on my tagg board.
why people are doing this ?
dont they have their own life?
and futhermore he/she dun have the guard to put down their own names.
haiis. people nowadays.
i dun get it what they one.
[ A T I K A H]
ps:his the only 1 [141109]
Sunday, December 6, 2009'♥
♥STORY OF MY LIFE♥
I AM SO STUPID AM I?
Seriously sorrie for not updating this blog. Kinda busy and no mood to update this blog.
There's like alot of things running through my mind rite now.
Oh god! why am i so stupid? why should I be born stupid? Am I blind? I just cant see wats going on around me? why Im like this. Why? A guy whom I didnt meet in the first place sacrifice alot of things for me, saving me from being hurt from this guy. Why I just dunt realise that people out there, care and sacrifice alot of things for me?
Why I'm right here, thinking abt myself and not thinking for others.
I dun expect him to do this. BUt why must he did all this things.
NOw i noe the reasons and i understand why.
Im so grateful and thankful for everything. And Im sorrie for hurting him all this time.
I just dunnoe how to repay all this things. I realise how much you love me and how much you willing to do something for me even though in the first place you hate me. Im sorrie.
I didnt meant to hurt you in any ways. Let forget about the past. Im seriously sorrie. I realli didnt meant it. I dunnoe that all the little things that I did may hurt you in any ways.
Im sorrie. Now is the time for me to repay you after all the things that you have done for me.
Im sorrie. Seriously sorrie, I dunt expect things to turn out to be like this. NOw i understand everything..
Why?
why am i so stupid and dump.
I feel so useless. Im like nobody to anibody. BUt why?
why everything has to be like this?
I feel sooo uselesss.....................
[ A T I K A H]
ps:i LOVE hyme [141109]
Wednesday, November 25, 2009'♥
♥STORY OF MY LIFE♥
SHOULD I
Everything move on fast. What should I do now? should I give up and just move on with my normal life? should i? or should I stay on do what is right.
Ive cried many times. It feel hurts, but nobody will understand why.
If i were to tell, so? they wunt understand everything that happening rite now.
Im jst dissapointed of wat had happened last tuesdae.
I didnt expect it to turned out to be that way.
and "he" keep giving me prob. were like quarreling almost everyday. Whats going on.
Went up and met nysa tat day. Told her everything, and i was like crying. Thanks nysa for being there for me.
You never failed to make me smile (:
Lets forget about it. Im sick and tired of telling everything. It just make me feel worst.
Just one thing to ask. Can i give up on everything that I have now?
can I? if this goes on, can i be what i want?
or should I just give to other people? bt i dunwant to be at the loosing end?
i want to stay on and do my duty in the best that i can give.
Now ive realised that being a band major is not an easy job for me with the situation like this.
but how? people are not supporting me. They just think of themselves. How about me?
Im having supper alot problems here. So what should I do now? any advice?
To cut everything short. Cant wait, to meet all my relatives..
weee~.. going back indo todae and gonna be back this sunday, if not monday.
so people take care. aniting just msg aiite (:
[A T I K A H]
ps:141109
Monday, November 23, 2009'♥
♥STORY OF MY LIFE♥
ITS OVER
firstly wanna say sorrie for not updating this blog.
Theres certain reasons why Im not been updating it..'-.-
aniiwae, finally everything is over.
(:
And, no more to enthu in engaging alot in activity.
You have to stop ika.
Life gonna be a difficult one for you. Trust me.
Now I have to choose, which want I should go and why.
I have to sacrifice alot of things now. Right now. Thinking through. Which is important to me right now. Whatever it is, I have to put band as my main and then move on with my life.
Studies, friends and yeah. Love life.
I have to choose. Now i left, with Band and student leader. Im sorrie guys for not submitting the RHYA senior cohort 6. I realli cant go. Is not that I don't want. I have alot of things to handle rite now, and I cant possibly to take in more. Mayb other time. Once again sorrie.
And not to forget, thanks to hui hui and maggie for being there to listen to all my craps. hahas.
once again thank you. and its true, no matter how much , people gonna hate me, dont like me. Its Ok. im fine with it. I still have my other friends, my family and my band. Nothing gonna stop me for enjoying my life !
cant wait going back Indonesia this fridae (: weeee~
gonna miss everybody..(:
and, yeah..gonna have a long dae at school. As per normal, band prac (:
so yeah, got to get ready for everything that gonna happen tmrw (:
And not to forget, wat ever happened last friday, just put aside. I think im being to emotional. I shouldnt have cried you see. Is like so embarrass of me to do so. But its ok. Im just feel glad, everything has being cried out, and what I wanted to say, it there , being said.
sometime, i just feel im not being a good BM you see. but , its part and parcel of life. I just need somebodi to support me. Thats all.. I just need time '-.-
[A T I K A H ]
ps:141109
Thursday, November 19, 2009'♥
♥STORY OF MY LIFE♥
ATLAST
The day has come..had my band farewell yesterdae (:
i realli do enjoy myself even though theres obstacle along the way..
but yeah, it didnt make me to give up.
we met up early, to get all the things done. and yeah. managed to get everything done by 10.00 (:
then, some of them spent their time, pumping all those balloons. its tiring..supper tiring..
small balloon and theres only 2 pumper. how pathetic it is.
but overall, we managed to pull it through.
Running everywhere, and since its a bad weather, we are like changing the games, to suit everything so that everything went on smoothly. ANd sometime, we even think of a games, that can be played to fill the gap during the farewell.
Overall, wanna say thank you to maggie and chun hui for helping me out in this farewell, plus not to forget, my bcm (:
i noe its a tough job for you all. but trust me , ue all managed to work together and pull it through, even though i believe we nearly give up along the way. but we didnt (:
we went through the tough time together ue see..once again thanks. for being by my side all the time aiite (: having ue all is GREAT..trust me..
may we stick together nomatter wat aiite (:
and theres alot of things to be learn from this farewell. patient is needed and lots more.
i hope all the seniors enjoyed themselves even though its a small party afterall.
so once again..
THANK YOU
B A N D R O C K S!
[ A T I K A H]
ps:im suppper tired, and theres one more event to go
Wednesday, November 18, 2009'♥
♥STORY OF MY LIFE♥
WHY EVERYTHING HAS TO BE THIS WAY
before that, sorrie for not updating this blog. its been awhile, because im kinda busy in my daily schedule, and forgotten about updating this blog.
before i move on, last sunday, we had the ECO RACE and seriously we did learn a lots of things through our life as a game masters (:
even though theres like a lot of obstacles along the way, we managed to pull it through.
we just have to lead it in a calm way you see. even though how much on tat day the public, scolded you or wat cuz they dunt seems to noe wats going on. Just take it as a learning point and just be patient (:
wanna thanks to the TOILET-EERS . U all made me learn wat do TRUE friendship means. The things that we undergo together reali made me learn something. and trust me..
YOU ALL ARE THE BEST!
Next, wanna thanks to Asilah and Carol for everything (:
I just need time for everything. Give me time to change and update.
I just feel that im struggling in my lyfe now. Its just like the LIFE and DEATH.
Mayb i didnt do much as a Band Major. But theres like a lot of things running through my mind rite now. and everything i do now, im trying to give to my fullest even though, I myself having some problems..but i will try..Like i say, I just need time for everything.
And, now. I feel like im invisble. People are not noticing me. Im nobody to anibody.
Isit I misunderstood everything or wat? But i just feel is real, its happening rite now.
Not doing aniting, having alot of things, and yeah, people hating you. Dont tell me they don't. Im confused in wat im supposed to do rite now.
Feeling like crying at this time of my life. I just feel useless and people don't understand. I just feel that i shouldn't be in that place in the first place. Why life has to be like this? Can i just end everything fast? Im like fighting everything emotionally.
Aniiway, im participating in this pushcart competition. SO people do come down, at causeway and support us rite (:
BEING A LEADER IS LONELY!!
[ A T I K A H]
ps:141109 is my DAY!
Thursday, November 12, 2009'♥
♥STORY OF MY LIFE♥
THANKS FOR THE DAY GUYS
im like sooo super happy..seriously..smiling all the way (:
i never felt this happiness in me.. the friendship tat i had..
and the feelings of belonging ue see..
todae, went to fad house which is at pasir ris..(:
yeah..meet kaz and azam at city hall...and thanks guys for accompany me for the job thing todae..
and im sorrie for being late..
after that, headed to pasir ris..then, meet fir there..and yeah..had alot of fun..
we were like karoke-ing all the wayy (:
actually i hate singing but too bad, fadhli, kept asking me to sing..so no choice (:
then, fir friend hazwan came and yeah..
theres when the fun begins..
we seriously had alot of fun.trust me (:
went karoke-ing. play games, eat crackers and then yeah..the tembakau (:
sheshare (: love it man (:
overall its fun..i was like laughing all the way..
and gonna miss all those moments..
i dun have the idea to describe but to tell you all that im
just simply happy (:
CREDITS:
-FADHLI
-FADHLYN
-KAZ
-FIRDAUS
-HAZWAN
-SHUK
-AZAM
TIRED
overall, theres like alot of things in my mind..still..
but hopefully everything going to end fast.
this coming sundae is the eco race thing, so yeah..
need to do our best in everything (:
watever happens, we gonna stick at 1 team the TOILET-EERS!!
im glad that the science bridging course is finally over (:
holidae just started.lame..'-.-
but yeah..watever it is..have to study..and omg!
im having like phy test..
and i havent even start studying..
cumon, its school holidae, who going to study?
damn it man!!
but overall, nothing happen..
cant wait start working (:
and yeah..
hope to have an enjoyable holidae of my time (:
[A T I K A H]
ps:im just too tired for everything
